At times I feel like my stress levels are making me go utterly mad.
I've always been a paranoid person thanks to what happened in the past, some people know why.
I've always been a curious person at heart, sometimes too curious for my own good... in which I hate.
I've been in a deep art slump as of late and I personally don't feel my art is worth any merit to myself even though others say differently
though I have brief moments where I'm proud of how something turned out the way I wanted it too.
I have haunting nightmares / dreams of past events that may never go away no matter how fucking hard I try...
I've been medically diagnosed with depression and anxiety about 2 - 3 years ago, sometimes I wonder if I am a little mentally unstable too lol.
I always give people the benefit of the doubt and in the end I end up hurt by losing them as friends, I trust too quickly due to the enjoyment of making new friends...
At times I feel tied up like a caged animal, and that is in reference of my commissions not that it's a bad thing, but I honestly cannot wait to say "I'm on my last commission!"
..but my art rut is so deep it seems damn near impossible in my eyes.. I want to get them done for people... I want too so bad... :'c
In this case.. I'm mainly proud of his expression here.. it's how I feel sometimes mentally.. stressed and unstable.
I'm trying to sort out my stress but it's far more difficult than I imagine..
Anyone know about ways of dealing with stress aside from gaming?
That usually helps... at times...
P.S. I'm sorry for the vents as of late, I've been dealing with a lot and it's just been weighing me down this seemed to have helped in some way..
I'll be alright in due time, I just gotta keep trying and take it day by day..
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